… because I might change my mind.

My Personal Scotland

I’ve been back since Wednesday afternoon but haven’t really had time to sit down and let you know how my time in Scotland went. In sum, in was a good trip. (Ask Jen what I mean generally when I say something is “good.”)

Scotland has a long tradition of revival and awakenings. In my own life, I’ve had revival moments where my walk with the Lord seemed perfectly in step. Over the last few decades, Scotland has not enjoyed that and many are praying for another revival or awakening (or a series of them) to overrun the nation. And for the last several years, my own walk with the Lord has been in need of an awakening — a return to right relationship with God.

Over my 2 weeks in Scotland, I had the privilege of working with a group from my church on a mission trip to Scotland to present a youth camp for about 37 students from all over Scotland. In trying to show these kids what a relationship with the Lord is about and all that it entails, the Lord has spoken to me anew. I’ve been reminded what my first priority should be — and why. The Lord says I am the way, the truth and the life. He said He came so that we may have life and have it abundantly or life to the fullest.

That abundant life has been missing from my daily life for quite a while. In fact, I often wondered if I’d ever experience it again. Over the last 2 weeks, the Lord showed me there is no need to wonder. He is available. He is present. He is waiting to hear from me regularly. He wants me to learn His voice. And I want and need all of that as well.

Now I’ve known those things for going on 22 years. But the workaday world — with its stresses and responsibilities and distractions — piled layers upon layers on my heart that made it easier and easier to forget the importance and power that comes with a life in tune with the Lord’s desires for me.

We shared with the students on this trip that the Lord has a plan for their lives. That He loves them. That He pursues them. That they are special in His eyes. And the more I shared that with the students, the more the Lord said the same things to me. And that felt so good. As it washed over my spirit.

Many students in Scotland struggle with feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness. In fact, Scotland as a whole struggles with these strongholds. Over the last 5+ years, I’ve been in my personal Scotland — thinking I could never overcome the struggles in my life and wondering where the way out is — if there even was one. Over this time in Scotland though, the Lord showed me that my situation is not hopeless, and I am not worthless. And my heart is awakening at the reality of that.

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5 responses

  1. Awesome. I am SO GLAD you went with us.

    July 29, 2008 at 8:55 am

  2. NICE. i love it!

    July 30, 2008 at 10:06 pm

  3. Very good stuff, Bill. I had some similar, although not exact, responses when I went to Scotland a couple years ago. I have to say, this made me desire to get back to “that place” with God. Like you said, the day-to-day life in America can numb you to the need for God. You can feel very out of touch. Your post gives hope.

    August 1, 2008 at 8:35 am

  4. M

    It was so good to read your post. I was keeping up with the Scotland blog, and I am so encouraged by hearing about your personal experience there. It speaks life to all the rest of us.

    August 3, 2008 at 4:57 pm

  5. kurtito

    Wow. I finally read this post and that is incredible. The Lord is so faithful.

    August 5, 2008 at 7:04 pm

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